Saturday, November 27, 2004

Howl, a UFO, Gingko leaves, hundreds of men all sporting the moustache of the Emperor

VfTT1 VfTT1 TTaC

Saw it! Very good, even Kimura. Tokyo Tower was beautiful in the dying light. We thought we saw a UFO. Passed some true architectural oddities on the way there, including the Tokyo Masonic Lodge and a red-bricked cylindrical tower with no doors. Tuesday was the Icho Matsuri. German sausages, Sanuki Udon and Beer. And the Meiji Emperor's memorial museum. Alternate histories. Watched Mystic River. I am not sure the ending really works. Looping guitar lines spiral through my room. I bought an RC-20XL. 16 minutes!



Here's a story I wrote in about 1 hour Monday night. The challenge from Misaki; 3 kanji; 矢、木、真珠。 Arrow, Tree, Pearl.

Hatsumode

On January 1st I was alone. In the morning I woke early; perhaps 4am, it was still black outside. I ran a hot bath and scrubbed myself clean of the night sweat soaking my sleeping robe. An old crumbly bar of yellow soap, scented with eucalyptus. The water was steaming; I filled the cypress bucket and poured it over my aching shoulders. I shaved in the cracked, steamed-up mirror glued to the concrete wall. Cut my neck, let the blood run down the drain in a crimson spiral. I dressed in a warm wool robe, carnadine orange, with a wide black sash. I took my knife, and my grass-tree staff, and my wool hat from beside the door.

Outside the wind was bitter as I made my way to the little shrine behind the house. I passed by the old street man’s leaning shack. Even he wasn’t up yet. Very quiet. My wooden shoes on the bitumen, the distant crowing of a cock. Just me and a few ugly old crows, hopping around the garbage piles and glaring at me sideways. Down the alley smothered in pot-plants, a turn right at the stone wall of the tiny graveyard, and then the stone steps of the shrine before me. No one here yet. Perhaps I am the first of the year. As I slowly clattered up, the stone guardian dogs seemed to howl as the north wind blew a flurry of long-dead pale leaves and urban debris in a vortex to carry me through the gate the color of my robe, of my blood.

At the fountain I washed my hands in the ice water spewing from the corroded bronze dragon’s mouth. The water a little pink as the warm blood from my neck trickled down through my sleeve. I touched the red-green water to my lips, blood-rust and verdigris.

I bowed to the ancient cedar girded in the white rope as thick as my thigh, then turned to the tiny building at the far end of the yard. Approaching with my clattering shoes, a cloud of diseased pigeons exploded, then blew away like smoke. I tossed a coin the same color as the dragon into the offerings-box, and gripping the rope, this one black as coal, shaking the bell, I prayed. To the god of War. The dove is his messenger. With blood in the soil, the crops grow tall and golden.

One old man stirred nearby in a small out-building. “Happy New Year,” he growled in a voice like that of an ancient toad recently woken from countless years under the mud. I approached and said “How many of these New Years for you, then, father?” He just grunted as if to say “more than enough” and gestured at the wares spread out on the table before him. A few assorted charms, talismans, wards, amulets, tokens and postcards. A fairly paltry collection to ward against bad luck, or jealousy, or demons, to bring wealth and fortune and love and children; to past tests, to win promotion, to hit the jackpot. “I need something stronger.” I said, indicating the wall behind him with the staff in my hand.

He glanced up at me for a moment, then with a sigh heaved his old bones off his stool and moved to the wall. It was covered in arrows, white and red, tasseled and bound with charms and wardings strong enough to bind and imprison the terrors of the world.

“Whatcha tryina kill?” He grunted.
I said “My love.”

He paused for a long moment, then turned back to me. “Your love?”
“An old love.” I said. “It won’t die.”
“By all the gods, son, that’s a tough one. That kind of thing don’t die easy, you know.”
“I know. I came to the god of war, of death and new life. Where else could I turn?”
“Hmmm.” His eyes became vacant. “OK. Wait. There.” He said, indicating the place where I was already standing.
He slowly made his way off to the main shrine building, entering through a side door I hadn’t noticed before. I followed him with my eyes. The pigeons had returned, were pecking around the sandy yard. I thought “what on earth can they find to eat there?” and then the side door swung open and the old man trudged back to the shop, grumbling all the way, carrying with some difficulty a long, flat box of dark wood.

He cleared a space on the table and gently clacked the box down. The sound was heavy. “Here you go.” He said. “This be what you need.” And he opened the box. Inside, on a bed of old crimson silk, lay a white wooden arrow, a full 3 feet long and with a vein of orange-red spiralling like the blood in my shower from one end to the other. Three feathers, white, red and black. The arrowhead a sharpened milky-white stone, viscous and cold in the early morning light.

“This is mother-of-pearl.” He gestured to the arrow. I wasn’t sure if he meant the arrowhead or the whole thing. “Is that its name?” I whispered, reaching to pick it up. He ignored me and continued, easing himself back onto his stool. “Used to kill love. There’s an old story that goes with this.”

He took out a slightly bent cigarette from a crumpled packet of Parliaments and offered me one. I shook my head slightly. He lit up and continued:
“Once upon a time there was a Lady of the court in this city, who fell in love with a Soldier, and he fell in love with she. Of course they couldn’t marry because her father wouldn’t allow it, but the soldier was a great warrior, filled with a burning passion and a fiery anger, and always and forever he sought to win fame and reknown. From a hundred bloody campaigns he returned victor, and eventually he rose, through feats both brave and barbarous, to a position of power, close to the local Lord. The two lovers had met in secret for years, but finally the Soldier was granted land and title, and the Lady waited eagerly for his proposal, practicing everyday her courtly archery, as was her wont. But the proposal never came, and the Soldier-Lord moved on, marrying a Princess from a foreign land carrying his rage over the seas. The Lady was shattered, and crafted this arrow in secret. From the ash-wood of her dowry-chest she cut the shaft, from a pearl stolen from a sea dragon’s treasure-room she honed the head, and the feathers she plucked from the three birds of the gods, necks cut in ritual before dawn beside the sea: dove, rooster, and raven. Then one day, standing in the very place you are standing now, she shot the arrow far into the air, as high as it would go, and it nigh disappeared into the sun. But down it came, the arrow, at the exact same spot she was standing, and struck her clean through the breast, and she was no more. And so you see this arrow is the killer of old loves which will not die.”

I looked down for a moment at the spot I was standing on. Under my foot, stuck to the bottom of my clog, was the wrapper of a candy bar. I looked up and said, with a dead face, “How much?”

The old man smiled, and as he did so, his eyes disappeared into his mirth.

Thursday, November 18, 2004

You aint worth the blood that runs in your veins

It's 1 o'clock. I have work in a few hours.

Recently fascinated with Intellectual Property law, of all things. I teach a private class to a lawyer, Ms. Chie, every other Thursday. She is currently involved in defending a female stalker who is pathologically obsessed with the local 'Kuroneko Takkyubin' delivery truck man. She buys shit just so he will visit. She follows him around on her bicycle and memorizes his routes. Chie is more interested in IP, however. We are currently looking at articles about the patenting of GM crops being sold/pushed on Iraqi farmers by American corporations. Fascinating. How can you patent something which by its very nature is a replicator. That is, the thing itself violates the patent, creates new copies, blows away in the wind and ends up on someone else's property. The seeds are illegal to own, the farmers have to destroy them after each harvest. We're also looking at media IP law, and next week I have chosen an interesting Wired interview with Jeff Tweedy from the band Wilco to kick off the lesson. "Music is not a Loaf of Bread."

All this has sparked a desire in me recently to pursue a legal career. A sudden thing. The more I think about the ideas I wrestled with during my undergraduate degree - in particular the intersection of art and postmodernity - the more I begin to think about Law. That is, in the legal field there exists a practical realisation of some of the theoretical issues I was and am so passionately interested in. So now I am looking at law schools in Australia, Canada, and elsewhere. My first thoughts: I need a lot more money.

This morning I spent doing laundry, visiting the dermatologist as I do once a month, and playing old Dylan songs on my beat-up acoustic. I have tickets to see Howl this coming Monday with Misaki. On Saturday I'm going to Akatombo with Junko and all that crew. Noel said he'd come too. Then Tuesday I promised to go to some festival in Aoyama with Mizuki. Meanwhile I have student counselling reports to write, I have to deal with this weird mother who hits her 2-year-old daughter before class and insists we treat the child 'as you would an adult,' and prepare for my University classes on Friday morning.

PS. I love Firefox. A few minor quibbles (such as no right-click options to change text encoding) but otherwise excellent.

Saturday, November 13, 2004

Walking behind the Red Sea

It was my birth-day the other. 26. Fuck!

Mizuki took me out for dinner that night after work. Tried to find a restaurant called Ko-Ke-Kokko (the sound of a Japanese chicken,) but it was out of business. Just a dark pit in the ground. Really. So instead we tried Torigen which was suitably dingy and relatively inexpensive yakitori.

A few days before I had met with Misaki and talked about this comic for a few hours, sitting in a school built in 1921 and designed by Frank Lloyd Wright. Jiyugakuen Myonichikan. A quiet, beautiful building. It reminded me of Edwardian Australian schoolhouses, all polished wood and hard chairs and real slate blackboards. I felt transported back to country WA for a few hours. The light was beautiful and we got coffee with free fruit cake and cookies! Yeah!

A fascinating mural in the main hall was uncovered recently underneath the plaster. Painted by the students, a bible scene from Exodus: 13. A column of fire precedes the march of the Israelites towards/into the Red Sea. Hebraic writing tops the mural, presumably a quotation. I was struck by the oddness of the picture's construction: the sky/sea cuts into the land and the human figures walk behind it. Proto-cubism by Japanese schoolgirls?

Hauru no Ugoku Shiro opens next Saturday: shall not miss...

Thinking about Law...

Monday, November 08, 2004

Karasu, Hato, Suzume

a whole boxload of Jose Saramago books arrived this morning.

[don't know how to make the accent on the e. sorry dude.]

3 whiskeys later and i'm about ready to read them.

winter is gnawing at the doorstep. listening to Wu-Tang riding to Yoyogi, i was cold. and in the park, the fountains were like ice. the fall leaves beautiful and full of regret.



tomorrow morning i am meeting misaki to work on a comic. here's the full text, minus scene desriptions:


***
"Boredom is nothing other than the sensation of the emptiness of existence." Schopenhauer, On the Suffering of the World.

8. One day in fall, I found a crow with a broken wing in the garden.
11. One day, your owner will come looking for you. I'll keep you safe.
15. Have you seen a crow? / I don't know.
16. Why do you hide your face? What happened to your eye?
19. Each full moon my bird gouges out this eye with his beak-
20. and each full moon I break his wing anew. Give me him so I may break him and him me.
22. Why do you do such terrible things to eachother?
23. Because this is who we are. We cannot be other than we are.
24. Don't you want to see? Doesn't the bird want to fly?
25. I doesn't matter what we want. We are.
26. I don't believe you! You must stop!
27. If we stopped, we would have no reason to touch eachother. It is better that we continue; we would be bored otherwise.
28...
>Change is good. Everything changes in time.
-I don't know...all the great changes in my life have felt somehow external to myself, as though instituted by another's hand.
>This sounds like a poor excuse to avoid responsibility. A manifesto of laziness.
-Maybe I can't escape my laziness. Maybe laziness is the unconscious recognition of futility in the face of a deterministic universe...
>Bah!
---
-But you see I don't want to change. I don't want to spend the energy to change. I am subject to inertia. Comfort is a heavy thing. It weights at me.
A)Push yourself! Go out into the cold!
B)No, stay where it's safe and warm.
-I want to be left alone without these wonderings.
-It's like a trance, our routine, we fall in circles like the moon falls about the Earth.
>But even this will change. The moon will one day plunge into the sea and be gone.
-And I shall not be here to see it. For me, infinity is bounded by my birth and my death. Parentheses arc across my horizons.
>Your children's children will see the fall of the moon.
-My children's children shall not be human.
>Aye, children today are not what they once were.
---
>To change, perhaps, you need to die and be reborn. A new page, a new word, a new spot of ink.
>Things are dying and rebirthing infinitely each moment.
-Yes. Humans like to partition their world. The alternative is madness.
>So to change this behavior, you must visualise a line and step across it.
-You sound like a pop psychologist.
>Well, you can't change if you don't want to.
-On the contrary, things change just when you don't want them to.
>Pessimism. Perhaps unconsciously...
-What if there is no unconscious? My mind just crystals reflecting the changing light? No interiors. All dimensions unfolded, the world is flat, a line, a point. There is nothing inside.
>Nihilism.
-Jargon.

29.Bah! I've had enough! Go away!
***

Not exactly a barrel of laughs. Frame 28 will be printed in microscopic type.

Sunday, November 07, 2004

...and 2 cactii

Tonight was Graf's housewarming in Ebisu. Unfortunately I didn't get much of a chance to speak to the man himself. But...
I had an extended conversation about linguistics or something on the train with law-schooling Ryan while okusan Miki sat bored and polite.
Nick likes Jack Vance and Steely Dan. The Dying Earth. Aja.
A girl who buys art films from Europe and South America for tiny Japanese theatres. Cool. Chi to Hone mitai!
A girl from Oberlin who favors Obama in 2008 and Argentinian men anytime.
A girl from Auckland who told great stories about being bitten by rabid monkeys and one beggar (on the ankle stepping out of a taxi) in India.
Yuusuke informed me that High Contrast is huge in Japan and insisted on some serious d&b clubbing over the winter.

Saturday, November 06, 2004

again

again, again,

it begins again.